this is my life. i'm not really sure why i got here. i often feels like "god, take me! take me! take meee!" or "i wanna die, mom! just gimme the knife!" ya know...my momma called it "depression" because i'm just a total jerk&asshole...i always try my best but i OFTEN don't succeeded and i just gave up on life. i'm alive, yeah, but without soul. people keep saying "dont think about it" but i just can't.