Sorry

i'm sorry for the things say, i'm sorry for the way i misbehave.

you're sorry for the way you yell. you're sorry for the way you treat me but you never sorry for the things you say.

you hurt me when you say those words..

after apologizing... our fight isn't put to an end.

aku tetep sayang kamu, no matter what.

heartless

kecewa.

sedih.

pgn nangis.

gak tau kenapa hidup gue belakangan ini kerasa.....hampa banget :( banyak hal yg gue takutin skrg.

gue kesel! kenapa gue gak bisa blak-blakan blg kalo "GUE GAK SUKA" ato "GUE GAK MAU" ke org2?!?!

gue mikir.... "gue salah ya? kyknya iya" gue pgn minta maaf tp dari hati gue sendiri blg "bukan lo doang yg salah". nahlo....mampus bgt. tp kalo menurut GUE kenyataannya emg gitu.

gue kesel! kenapa gue, ke sendiri aja, gak bisa jujur!

nulis diblog aja nih takut-takut, "nanti kalo dibaca gmn ya? trs kalo dia ngerasa trs marah gmn ya?". ANJINGGGGGGG secara gak lgsg gue yg goblok... "INI BLOG JUGA BLOG LO, GOBLOK! NGAPAIN TAKUT NULIS SEMUA YG ADA DI OTAK LO?!"

ok pertama gue mau bilang....siapapun yg NGERASA gue tulis di blog ini maaf banget gue bukannya mau ngejelekin lo ato apa cuman gue gak bisa ngmg lgsg ke lo gmn tertekannya gue gak bisa ngmg jujur&terbuka ke lo. tp itu karna lo sendiri........gue takut lo marah kalo gue terlalu terbuka/jujur karena pasti lo bkln blg kalo gue salah mikir tentang lo ;(

LO.......penting buat gue. sangat penting. penting banget, bahkan terlalu penting. gue sadar, kdg2 gue mengkesampingkan temen-temen gue&sahabat-sahabat gue buat lo, gue gak peduli seberapa bete mereka sm gue grgr gue lebih mentingin lo. iya emang lo gak pernah nyuruh gue kyk gini. iya emang gue yg mau kyk gini karna gue syg lo. bukan berarti gue gak syg mereka. tp LO buat GUE itu beda dari mereka. dan maaf.......belakangan ini gue ngerasa lo berubah. lo jadi datar sama gue. dan gue ngerasa.....................i'm nothing for you :(

sometimes there's nothing left and when you look in the mirror... all you see is regret

gue gak nyesel karna sayang sama lo. gue gak pernah nyesel sama sekali. gue cuma nyesel, apa yg gue korbanin ke lo itu gak sebanding sama apa yg lo korbanin buat gue. itu menurut gue hahaha kalo gak bener ya gak boleh marah :)

i'm drunk.

I HATE YOU, WORLD! when i take this life with joking and laughing even tought i got the hardest problem in life, people keep taking this life really really serious. when i take this life so serious and i don't wanna hear a giggles, people keep playing around and acting like an idiot. thats-so-unfair. I don't know what to write.

you're important to me

you're important to me because we share laughters. sometimes we share regular laughters, but at times we laugh over things that no one but us can find the humor in. that's my favorite kind of laughter and you are my favorite person to share it with

you're important to me because we share tears. sometimes they are regular tears, but at times they are private ones that only we can share and understand. those are the most important kind and i'm thankful that i have you to share them with.

you're important to me because we can share any secrets and know that whether or not we agree with it, its in safe keeping. i know that i can tell you things i could never tell anyone else.

you're important to me because we can share hopes and dreams. when we share them.....we know that we have someone who supports each other, believes in what we want, and who will hope as much as we do that our dreams can come true.

ya know that you are so important to me, there is no person in the world who could ever take your place in my life.

there is no one i'd rather laugh or cry with or share my innermost thoughts with, and there is absolutely no one i'd rather have as my very special boyfriend.

Love you, Jul!

Tell me about my future

Tell me about my future, because I don't want to wait. Tell what will happen.

I can't sit around thinking of my demise, and wondering who's my love.
Mom said "que cera cera what ever will be will be" but I can't help...I'm worry about what will become of me.

I will always be anxious if I will end up alone, if I will never find someone to share my home with.